January Kicks Me in the Junk
December was a very good month for me poker-wise. I was making quality decisions and as a bonus, my results were falling in line with my decisions. I really started to believe I would get my bankroll where it needed to be to play a bunch of WSOP events this year and not have to worry about it decimating my roll.
January on the other hand, has decided to kick me in the Junk. I just can't seem to win. My decisions are off, my results are bad, and all of a sudden I'm tilting again. December was a tilt free month for me, thanks to some advice I got from Joanne at the Winter Classic. I was going to save this for part 2 of my winter classic trip report, but since I have slacked on getting that up I'll recap the conversation here. We were sitting at the geisha bar shooting the shit and tilt came up. I mention how I'm getting better at managing my tilt, I can identify it (usually I start tilting by overplaying position, then I start making impulse calls), and I have been really trying to recognize when I'm doing it, and try to stop it. After listening to me proudly state how I'm trying to stop my tilt she responds with Yoda like wisdom "Don't try to stop, just don’t do it." I realized my "trying" was just an excuse to sometimes still make these bad decisions. For almost a month after that, anytime I got into a situation what I might do something stupid, I heard Joanne's voice in my head like some kind of anti-nike commercial - "Just don't do it." And I made the right play.
Now it’s gone.
I can’t make out her voice anymore. Part of the reason is that I started playing in more blogger tourneys and cash games. In these games, I’ve told myself its more about having a good time than about decisions, so I intentionally ignore Joanne’s voice and try to make fancy (read stupid) plays for the fun of it. This has slowly leaked into my normal game and really hurt my bankroll. Here’s an example, at the Hoy on Monday (a blogger tourney on stars) I’m playing pretty decent cards when in late position I pick up the Hammer. I get really exited, because I haven’t seen the hammer in days (what kind of twisted thinking is this?). Jocelyn glances over at my laptop and says “Just throw it away, don’t be stupid.” I don’t give Joanne’s voice a chance to agree and quickly raise to 3x BB. The button calls, and the flop comes QQx. I insta-push all in, Jocelyn yells “Noooooooooo,” and Joanne’s voice swears at me in French, gives up, and goes back to Canada for good. I know this is exactly the wrong way to play the hammer, even in a blogger tourney. Button calls and shows a queen and I’m drawing dead on the flop.
I decide to head over to FT for a $200 cash game with some other bloggers. Realizing what an idiot I am, I resolve to play solid poker even though it’s a blogger game. To be honest, if I had really resolved to play solid poker, I would have never sat at that table, there were much softer tables I could have played at.
Anyway, I play super tight playing only about 8% of my hands and have gotten up to around $400 in a couple hours. Then Lucko sits down two to my right. He raises every other hand and is playing like a crazy maniac. After a while of this, I get tired of him stealing my blinds. The following hand occurred.
Seat 1: smizmiatch ($200)
Seat 2: Blinders ($200), is sitting out
Seat 3: MrDidactic ($136.60)
Seat 4: smokkee ($200)
Seat 5: lucko21 ($634.65) < - - - - - Maniac rolling over the table
Seat 6: MiamiDon ($362.35)
Seat 7: Troublecat ($198)
Seat 8: VinNay ($407.95) < - - - -- - has seen one flop in last 3 orbits
Seat 9: weak_player ($199)
Troublecat posts the small blind of $1
VinNay posts the big blind of $2
The button is in seat #6
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to VinNay [2c 4s]
weak_player folds
smizmiatch folds
MrDidactic folds
smokkee folds
lucko21 raises to $6 < - - - - - - 7th consecutive raise when I’m in BB (feels like that anyway)
MiamiDon calls $6
Troublecat folds
VinNay raises to $20 < - - - - - - good time for a squeeze play and I’m steaming over his play
lucko21: someone making a good play
lucko21 has 15 seconds left to act
MiamiDon: lol
lucko21: i cant allow that
lucko21 raises to $67 < - - - - - - fucker
MiamiDon: thats good ray
MiamiDon folds
VinNay calls $47 < - - -- - - - ok, I’ll call and represent a flopped set (Joanne’s voice is in Alberta by now)
*** FLOP *** [Ts 3d Jc]
VinNay checks < - - - -- - - Ok, I’d check-raise here if I made a set, this maniac is sure to bet out
lucko21 checks < - - - - - Fucker
*** TURN *** [Ts 3d Jc] [8s]
VinNay checks < - - -- - I must bet here with my set, there are flush and straight draws. Some other voice, I think it was Hispanic, whispers to me that I don’t really have a set, so I check.
lucko21 checks
*** RIVER *** [Ts 3d Jc 8s] [5h]
VinNay bets $100 < - - - - -- Ok, I can only win if I bet out, maybe he will still put me on a set if I bet just the right amount, but I’m pretty sure I blew it by not betting the turn.
lucko21: u either got AK or a set < - - - - - YES, YES, I have a set!!!!!!!
lucko21: i think AK < - - - -- - FUCKER
lucko21 has 15 seconds left to act
lucko21: though
lucko21 calls $100 < - - - -- FUCK, FUCK, FUCK
*** SHOW DOWN ***
VinNay shows [2c 4s] (Jack Ten high)
lucko21 shows [Kd Ah] (Ace King high) < - - - - WTF, Ace high???? He calls with Ace High???????
lucko21 wins the pot ($338) with Ace King high
lucko21: wow
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $341 Rake $3
Board: [Ts 3d Jc 8s 5h]
Seat 5: lucko21 showed [Kd Ah] and won ($338) with Ace King high
Seat 8: VinNay (big blind) showed [2c 4s] and lost with Jack Ten high
This Ace high call puts me over the edge and I proceed to dump $300 more to the table before I finally quit. Most of that to Lucko when we both flop trip Aces, I move all in and he calls with bigger kicker.
The worst part is that this type of play has overtaken my non-blogger games as well. I need to find a way out.
Joann’s voice, if you’re out there, I’m sorry. I promise to eat Canadian bacon, root for the Flames, and learn curling if you come back.